Forever starts today

I am going to write a gushy blog post about what it feels to be loved.

Sometimes I feel so fed up with life. Each person wears so many hats for so many different people. We try to be what each person needs us to be whether it's someone to teach them, someone to listen to them, someone to laugh with them them or merely someone to hug them. At times it's hard to know which hat to wear with what person. It's mind boggling trying to figure out what people need so I can help them. There are times when I just want to quit. I want to stop caring about what other people need or want me to be. I just want to crawl into my own little hole and not have to care about anyone or their problems. Sometimes I do succumb to it and quickly fall further into a sort of depression. I really don't think a person was made to carry their own burdens, the more they look at their own issues the more depressed and frustrated they become, or at least I do. In moments like these I get so caught up in myself that I'm not worth much. Yet, I don't serve a God who gives up on me. Instead of condemning me He reassures me. Yesterday, He used a 2nd grade girl saying "I love you" in broken English to brighten my day. Today, He allowed me to run into my students from last year. I got to talk to one or two of them and I said hello and hugged them. I didn't have time to chat so I said, "Goodbye, long time no see." and one of my girls said "Long time no see and long time miss you." Then she turned her head away I think she was a little choked up to see me. I'm ganna say it's because she loves me and she didn't know I was coming back =D
"OH GOD! is there anything more wonderful in the whole world than being loved back?! Isn't that what You did when you came to earth? You loved us and loved us and kept loving us whatever our response. Whether we loved you back or not you kept loving us. Joy knows now bounds when that love is returned"

I warned you that it would be mushy. I love my students here and I love the children and the people God gave me and no matter what I have to give I'm going to keep loving them. Why? Because it's the moments like these that make it all worthwhile.

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ;" Ephesians 1:3...


P.S.

Today I bought an ugly purse. I don't know why. I thought I loved it when I first saw it. It was on sale so I bought it and left the store within minutes of coming in. Now I hate it. Such is life.